Doubt the Doubt

 There are moments when doubt whispers louder than truth. It creeps in quietly, questioning everything you once felt certain about — your growth, your faith, your purpose, even your healing. But what if the doubt itself is the lie? What if the voice that tells you “you can’t” is only afraid that you finally will?

This morning, I caught myself slipping into that space again — wondering if my blog will ever reach the goals I’ve set for it, if my book will be finished, if my dreams will ever unfold the way I imagine them. Will my stories become movies? Will I really get to work with the directors I dream about? Will my book one day be on the big screen like so many others?

Those thoughts came after looking at my blog stats — numbers that made me question whether what I’m doing really matters. But then something shifted in me. I realized I could either sit in that doubt or doubt the doubt itself. I could choose to believe that just because I can’t see the full picture yet doesn’t mean it isn’t forming.

So today, I’m choosing to keep moving forward. To write anyway. To trust that what’s meant for me is still unfolding — even when it’s quiet, even when it’s slow. Because faith doesn’t always roar… sometimes it just whispers, “keep going.”

When I was younger, I remember hearing people say, “I doubt it.” I didn’t really understand what they meant back then — it was just something people said when they didn’t believe. But now, I do. I understand what it means to doubt, and I also understand what it means to rise above it. These days, when doubt tries to talk to me, I just smile and say, “I doubt it.”

Today, I’m not fighting my doubts — I’m just choosing not to believe them.

-Toniray