A New Beginning

 I woke up this morning wondering what I could accomplish instead of always feeling unaccomplished. I started to think if starting a blog would even make a difference in my life, I didn't know where or how to begin or what even to say.  I started to second guess this "big" decision, say forget it and scroll through Youtube and watch something crime related and let the day pass, and continue on this never ending cycle of mine. So, I got up from my bed for a second, because I felt the anxiety drawing near as if I was standing in-front of an audience, and I hadn't jotted one word. I began to just say forget it, you have too many problems or issues to even start anything, and that consumes your mind right now so just lay the hell back down. Then the intrusive thoughts really started rolling in: Your unemployed, at home, in your 40s, going through perimenopause marital issues, what would you have to say to the world that can have a positive domino effect starting right now? I thought to myself on how bad Ive been feeling stuck, I thought you don't even have the money to set up a domain, for this blog to get started on your "dream". I thought to myself again what am I supposed to say to people. I mean I had a simple good morning, to give but that's it, then I said to myself just be honest, what will it hurt? I figured why not just go ahead a create a "community" you'd like to be a part of So heres what I came up with so far...For as long as I can remember, words have been my safe place.  My name is ToniRay by the way . And I'll be here to help readers read and writers write.  Most of all, I want people to be themselves and feel free in this space of mine. This space will hold pieces of my book-in-progress, reflections on my faith, and the process of healing and self-discovery. How'd that sound? I think it was ok, its true that what Id like this blog to be all about and Id like for whoever comes across this to engage with me, no, really embark on this journey of becoming a writer that Ive always dreamed of being. I figured me being honest with myself would help me start, and I think I did pretty good...Depending on the response if any I may come back tomorrow, I think I like you all already.

-ToniRay